beyond me

having nothing
to lose
has granted
new insight
my feelings spelled
spilled out
in craving
caring
and being available
an inside joke
with fate
designed for torture
opportunity
perhaps destiny is
lined with my love
so easy to just
part my lips
to speak
to breathe
sigh into relief
what it lacks
is appreciation
however balanced
schemed
traded
still I cannot
tell
lose one thing
holding on
holding back

all I ever wanted
beyond me