smile

from now on
i will only
smile
i will say
only what you
want to hear
fake
every day
until i die
today
i have become
undone
just a mess
i can't clean up
a puzzle
i can't solve
and a question
no one can ever
ever seem
answer
and for that
i will accept
nothingness
and continue to pay
pay my dues
the seed
that never sprouted
never saw the sun
but dreamed
much too hard
i kept the water
running
overflowing
spilling out
i am not allowed
to cry
so from now on
i will smile