Bitter... a new song

My pain sits in a cheaply made box
Like a tarnished piece of jewelry
My hard work forgotten for “I’ve got a job”
Shouldn’t that mean something to me?
Close my eyes and hear music
Open them and see mundane
Left me in the bottom purposely
Out in the rain

But I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter am I?

Told me I was a shoo in said
I could go anywhere from here
Made me believe in dreams I held onto so long
Everything was so clean so clear
I didn’t fit the mold they made
Dress, shoes, carriages and all
Unceremoniously and swiftly
They kicked me out of ball

But I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter am I?

They tell you it’s all soon to come
Not to waste it all just yet
So you give all you can for one more second
And get caught in the net
Lies lies beautiful lies
Carrying me through to regret
But I haven’t given up
I still have to pay my debt … to you

But I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter
I’m not bitter am I?