Lead

you are what
I want,
but are you
what I need?
I see the outlines
forming,
then the colors
start to bleed.
I could be the girl
if you'd only
give your word
silent actions speaking
still, I don't know
what I heard
I ask for too much, perhaps
or go "all in"
in haste,
rushing forth naively
I will lose you
in the chase
Am I what you want?
or am I what you
need?
I will wait for more
and, in faith,
let you lead.

Clay

i blame myself
for thinking
recklessly
everything
swirling around
in my imagination
things that
don't exist
all i want
is to learn
not to shape
the anxiety ridden
clay
into things that
aren't there

worth.

walk me in
circles
parading around
in lackluster ribbons
just a prize
show
animal
for what
its worth
a joke
cruel and
funny
its what I see
its what I see
in this
in me

oblivion

right beside the door
is the answer
waiting for so long
the code is
undecipherable
traced back to the
mundane
when you see the lines
the colors fade
and blindly shaded
riddles
ripped apart
now wasted in the scheme
and left
shining
in the harsh day
called out into
the less observed
oblivion

breathless

when
you leave me
shaking
breathless
would you be surprised
to know
that my heart
is walking
alongside you
begging for attention
starving
terrified
an open subject
the door
I am just waiting
for you to
just waiting
for you too

Want

set me to work
and I swear
you won't regret it
set me to you
I will
slave, and push
I will drive and heel
beg
but I won't
unless you want me
to

Jumped

I can't prolong
it
I can't end
what I pushed into being
I fulfilled into motion
and I can't stop
feeling this
way
you tell me not to
fall
but I've already
jumped

work.

don't worry
I like
that you like
to work
and when
I get the
chance
I'll do my very
very best
to prove it.

spot

I drove past that
spot
at least
twice
before realizing
that it now
had new meaning
your life
ended there
and I
got to just
keep driving.

closed

you slipped away
fast as you
came in
holding up my dreams
to the light
and saw how very thin

they became
over time as I brought them
from the dark
maybe now
I can let take over
a new beginning
cold and stark

Shrinking hollow
images
like pictures exposed
maybe now I can
show you
the doors that I had closed

nightmare

on my knees
I begged
for the life that
could have been
as much for me
as you
and them
the dream seemed to last
forever
but I know
it will never be
as raw or real
as the nightmare
I awoke to

disappointment

over and under
through the middle of me
taking aim at the fire
and only getting the
heart of the flame
burning in the coals
almost barely glowing
pulsing in the breeze
it blazed once
but not enough
to keep you
from the cold