using.

you slumped over
like a wilted flower
head just resting
above your food tray
then
when I spoke
your head would pop up
as though by some
miracle
grow
I saw the same thing
on tv the other day
but that girl
was using

held.

they told me
the whole world
rested in two hands
why don't I feel
held?

differences

you want answers

i want solutions

why do we want such different things?

Grief over Time

I can't go to you this time
my love is not enough
I can't hold you together
your hands are no longer there
I can't keep you aloft
when the waters call to us both
I can't be where you are
my mind is so far gone
I want to fall into the darkness
I want to come to your aid
But my words are fruitless
And my actions cause pain
Everything I consider
Ends in oblivion
Ends in vain
My tongue, my eyes, my hands
offend thee
No longer do I have
the courage
to cut them away for you
I have nothing but grief in me

blackness

Sinking my hands
into the blackness
everytime your face
enters my head
like a plague I cannot shake
I rear back from it
recoil at the sight
of what I cannot concieve
uncontrollably shaking
but nothing is on my skin
scratching the surface
from underneath
the madness is inside
poking through
to peer out
into the vast universe
and smile as it ponders
the demise