left

so many feelings
and I don't know
how to feel them
so many questions
and I
don't know how
to ask
them
so many words and I don't know how
to say them
only left with thoughts my love
thoughts...   

forever

I don't know
why it matters so
or why
I struggle to
hold on
its too good
to be true
and when you 
finally find her
the one who
is better 
than me
you will walk 
until then
can I pretend 
this is forever?

Sir

one cold morning
walking to my car
I smiled
that way
for the first time
with your name on
my lips
and thoughts of you
surrounding me
like an escort
like your hand on my 
back
your heat
permeating through 
the center 
of me